A switch explained

My D asked a great question. Did I only dom because I hadn't met anyone until he who could properly dominate me. I had to think about that. It's true, I had yet to meet anyone who could pull it off. I've been disappointed with past experiences, but not with subs.. with people who claim to be the dom I desire and fall short. I fully enjoy making someone submit to me, torturing them with pleasure, pleasuring them with pain... having someone helpless and willing to do my bidding.. Often I found myself having to be the top cause my partner was just pathetic and didn't know what to do with me once they got me.

Photo credit: @YetUntamed

I have had fantasies about being on the other side for a long time. It started with curiosity. Seeing how elated the sub was had me wondering what it felt like. It took me a very long time to find someone capable of handling me, someone who gets it. I've no desire to submit to anyone else. That is how I know I'm a switch and not only a sub.  The desire to dominate has no face with me.. it's just natural that I will tell you what to do and you'd better fucking do it. But my submissive side has a face. It's @Just_Dark. I only desire being under his control, no one else's. I don't fantasize about being tied up, I fantasize about being tied up by him. I don't dream of being spanked and ordered around.. I dream of being spanked and ordered around by him. 

So the answer lover is not that I was only a dom for lack of option.. it's that I am only a sub for discovery of you.